Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Midweek reads and wrapping up...

Dec/Jan TBR
I keep setting myself up for failure.

I want to write my top ten of 2015 blog post, but nearly half of my top ten reads have been unreviewed, so I keep putting that post off in hopes I'll rally and write those reviews. And I've got some thoughts on changes to this blog for 2016 I want to explore, but don't want to dive into that until I wrap up 2015 stuff. And I want to do some of that fun reading challenge geekiness but haven't nailed down my 2016 TBR.

This is what I do to myself all the time, be it blogging or writing or any other endeavor: lots of rules about how/when I do it. If I make one resolution in 2016, it'll be to give myself permission to just do what I want, the moment I want to do it.

Today is the first snow of the season in Boston, and it's deliciously dramatic from my living room window. My wife had to go to work in it, but I'm happily snuggled inside, although despite the wealth of books around me, I'm not entirely interested in reading (sadly). Apparently one doesn't have postpartum past one year, so I can't blame that, and I need to figure out why I'm still feeling so funky and numb and tired all the time. (Been on Paxil since June and it's helped with my crazy anxiety, but still feeling a bit cloudy and muted.)

I actually don't have much to say in this post, but felt like sharing a little -- I think others might feel as I do, and I could use a little blogger-ly "I hear ya"s.

I hope everyone has a wonderful New Year's -- if you've gotten anything good for the holidays, share in the comments so I can drool and grow my TBR! (A task that cheers me up no matter what!)


  1. I certainly hear ya...I'm dealing with major overwhelm myself at the moment with an international move looming, kid issues (THEY ARE GROWN UP IT DOES NOT STOP) and trying to figure out how I'm going to keep up with writing amid all of this. Overwhelm produces anxiety in me, and that anxiety is counterproductive. The best remedy for anxiety is productivity. So it's a big battle between the Forces of Good and Evil around here, basically.

    Naturally, the best thing I can do to resolve the battle is to take some time to write about it. Now that the post-travel exhaustion, post-Christmas exhaustion and Stinkin' Christmas Cold are almost behind me, I think that's just what I'll do. You've made a start by talking about it on your blog, so you're ahead of me! Big New Year's hugs xxx

  2. Snow? It's still hot down here. We have the air conditioner and ceiling fans on. I haven't reviewed a few of my favorite books of the year either.

  3. I hear ya! I hope you can shake the fogginess. Texas, as you probably know, is seeing CRAZY ASS WEATHER. From the 70s and 80s on Christmas day to tornadoes and blizzards. I can't even.

  4. Oh, Audra, I feel ya and definitely can relate to the pressure and anxiety! This is my first year with my own blog and I found myself pressuring myself about how much time I would allow to go by after finishing a book before I wrote the review, excepting just about every request that came my way to post about an author's book, etc and I found it slowed my reading down even more than it already was (not to mention a more stressful and busy year at work). I've decided I'm going to try to loosen my rules this year and allow myself to have even more fun with it, so I don't get burned out. You let yourself feel whatever you need to feel, and just know you have a lot of support not only in person but virtually! We love you girl!

  5. I think 2015 has been a downer...at least from my view. The weather for winter in DC has been a nice 70s, but I haven't felt cheerful really. Perhaps its all the poetry rejections of late, but I don't think that's it. I just feel underwhelmed.

    I'm not really picking up your spirits, am I? Sorry about that. I say give yourself permission to do what you want. You might feel better.

    2016 will be more writing and submitting, and less blogging and book reviewing for me. I think I might turn to audio more and more too, as I don't have much time to sit and read. Audio I can do with other things.

    I'm looking forward to catching up on some poetry that has sat on the shelf for far too long.

  6. Chiming in late to say I hear ya too. I want to write a "favorite books of 2015" post but can't tonight. I could hardly concentrate at work, and I can't seem to settle with a book for more than a few pages.

  7. We have all been there! Right now sitting in a hotel room, very happy on my iPad whilst everyone else is briskly going somewhere!

  8. I completely understand about the anxiety and feeling down. I struggle with that all the time. ((Hugs)) I wish you a happy and healthy 2016!

  9. I definitely hear you on 'make all the rules for myself and then I can't break them so I can't do anything.' Fuck the rules, right?!